Days Six and Seven...

6.Something I hope I never have to do...

Like my list of things that I want to do there is a longer list of the things I never want to do. Here they are...

Barry anyone of my kids

Bungy Jump

Scuba Dive

See any of my kids get badly hurt

Get hit by a car

Lose everything

Lose Faith

Lose touch with any of my kids

Get a call from the fire dept that my husband is badly injured or dead

Get locked into a small room

The list can go on and on but I am sure everyone doesn't want to do MOST of these things so no big surprise...

7. Someone who has made my life worth living for...

This one is super easy, the second I read it I knew what I was going to say.

The person who has made my life worth living for is my AMAZING husband Anthony Scott. He is my everything and with out him I would be lost. I would n't have such a strong testimony of the Gospel, I would not have any of my beautiful children, and I would not laugh everyday.

Anthony and I met a very long time ago, I was in tenth grade and one day he and some awesome friends gave me a ride home. About a year or so later we became very close, best friends even. We did everything together! We are the same to this day, I love spending all my time with him and wouldn't want it anyother way!

Anthony is such a good role model for me, he inspires me to always look to do good and do better, he knows his strengths and puts them to good use! He is a man of service like I have said many many times before. He never puts himself before others and remembers his Savior in all things!

I will live the rest of my life making myself better to match his compassion and love for Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I can't wait to see how our life together will grow, and all the memories we will make laughing, loving and living! I love him with all my heart and I am so blassed to have him in my life!

Days Two, Three, Four, and Five...

2.What to I love about myself?

Well this is a toughy because growing up if you liked something about yourself and said anything about it you were called cocky or arrogant, so having a positive opinion about yourself is super hard for me. Taking compliments is even harder...

With all that said, I do need to tell the truth and say what I love about myself... I think it would have to be that I am funny/quirky... I like that you can never guess what I might say next even if it may get me in trouble... I love to laugh and enjoy fun loving conversation so my unexpected remarks always seem to add a little more of everything I love.

3. Something I need to forgive myself for...

This one is so far the hardest one to answer. Not because I don't have the answer but whether or not I am willing to share such a deep and personal instance with the world. I think writing it down will be just as hard. But I signed on to this challenge with full intention to complete it and telling the truth so here it is...

3 years ago right after I had Makenzie I became pregnant, which we were happy, scared, nervous, excited and not sure about. And one day, when I was about 8 weeks along, I decided to rearrange the furniture in the living room including HUGE couches and chairs, unfortunately I did this alone. The next day early in the morning I started cramping really really bad so I went to the bathroom where I began to bleed pretty heavily I started to panic and called Anthony. He rushed home and took me to the hospital. They told me that I had had a miscarriage... I remember getting home stepping into the newly remodeled living room and dropping to my knees crying "if only I didn't move this furniture, if only I was careful." I felt as if I had killed my unborn child.

I know what you are thinking... God has a plan for me and what happened was part of it. It may not have had anything to do with moving furniture. Nevertheless, I blame myself...

For this I am trying to forgive myself.

Kinda deep eh? Don't worry I am ok :)

4. Something I need to forgive someone for...

Man these questions are hard! To be truthful, I didn't read every question before I took on this challenge... probably should've haha

I need to forgive my family... Theres not a whole I want to say other then I wish things happened differently when it comes to my childhood but they are what they are... I need to just face that and forgive and forget...

5. Something I hope to do in my life...

There are soo many things I want to do so I will just list them off!!

- Sky Dive for my 25th Birthday

- Build my dream house

- Buy a horse... a special horse, Her name is Mercedes. She is light brown with a dark brown mane and tail... she is beautiful! Anthony hasn't decided what kind of horse he wants but he will be getting one as well :)

- Get my photography studio set up

- Grow a garden full of veggies

- Scrapbook each of my children's lives

- Travel to Ireland.. for starters, then everywhere else!

There are so many more but they are escaping me at the moment...haha

Tune in for the next questions!!

Day One

So I follow an AWESOME blog called a sorta fairytale and she is doing this challenge called "30 days of truth" and she mentioned that she didn't think she could do it because it was very disclosing and controversial and I completely agree but I thought I might learn a thing or two about myself so why not? I hope I don't offend anyone but I plan to tell the truth.

Here are the questions...

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day number one: What do you hate about yourself?

First of all, I want to start off by saying I am just answering the questions, not expecting people to hand out complements like candy. I can't stand it when a super skinny person talks about how fat they are (only looking for the rebuke the comment) when they are obviously skinnier then the person they are complaining to...

Ok, something I hate about myself.

My patients. I can't stand that I am so in the moment and can't wait to see what comes in the future, I am a horrible saver because of it. I am getting better about it but I am not where I want to be. I think that when I was in heaven, ready to come to earth, Heavenly Father asked what I would like to learn. Unfortunately, I had a long list, I am not sure what I was thinking. but I asked for..

Patients
Confidence
Humility
& Strength

each of these are to be well earned I assure you... ahaha it will take my lifetime to learn :)

I CHALLENGE YOU TO DO THIS WITH ME!! DON'T MAKE ME HAVE TO PUT NAMES!!

Emma does NOT look like Mak...

When seperate they look alike but side by side you can REALLY see the differences!! One looks like me the other looks like Anthony... which is which??

Still Learning...

Being a parent is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, you have no idea until you are rushing out the door with a three year old needing socks and shoes on, two infants that can't do ANYTHING for themselves, I still need binkies, bottles, formula, bibs, toys, and many more items that seem to have gone missing ... and on top of everything the clock is screaming "YOUR LATE"!! To those lucky folk that know how to look at that nasty clock and say, "I know you are, but what am I?" you are so awesome to do so.

I often forget that I am rearing three little children of God, I get so caught up on just trying to make it through each day... I need to remember to take each moment as a gift and treaure it.

I was reading a friends blog just a bit ago and saw this quote that really touched my heart and spoke to my spirit... I just hope I can apply it to my life better :)

"Never forget that those little ones are the sons and daughters of God and that yours is a custodial relationship to them, that Hewas a parent before you were parents and that he has not relingquished His parental rights or His intrest in these His little ones... Rear your children with love, in the nature and with admonition of the Lord. Take care of your little ones. Welcome them into your homes, and nurture and love them with all of your hearts. They may do , in the years to come, some things you would not want them to do, but be patient, be patient. You have not failed as long as you have tried."
-President Gordon B. Hinckley

I love this and just felt it should be shared... Thanks Cheryl!!