Monday, December 6, 2010

Day Twenty Five, Twenty Six and Twenty Seven...




Day Twenty Five the reason I believe I am still alive today...

There are many possible answers to this question, but to be quite honest I have no idea. I have often thought about this, what is the reason I am still here? I have had my share of near death experiences, two that I can really recall

When I was newly married I worked for The Senior Center within the Everygreen Hospital organization, I worked as a Receptionist slash medical records clerk. I loved my job very much! I also loved all my coworkers and one day I was out to lunch with one of them. Misty and I were in Kirkland near Fred Myer where there are train tracks, and we were stopped at a red light

::Pause:: you know how there are always signs that say don't stop on the tracks? Does anyone really do that??

Ok, we were stopped on the train tracks when all of a sudden we see the red and white striped bar lookin' things come down and red lights start to flash. We looked around us to see if we could move (We were in a Buick AKA longest car ever) anyways we hear the train's horn and we start screaming. Misty starts to back up the car to get out of the way as much as possible... the next thing we know the train is passing in front of us LESS THEN A FOOT AWAY!! I have no idea how we fit this HUGE car between the striped bar and the train but we did... I almost died!!

The next time I almost died was 4 years ago when I was pregnant with Makenzie. We lived at the Acsent apts. and it had snowed... the only way to leave the apts was the go down a VERY steep paved hill. Anthony had taught me how to drive in the snow so I thought I could handle it. I was in 1st gear and started to creep down the hill. There was ice and I lost control of the car and I started sliding down the hill and I started to panic... and as the tears started to flow out of my face the car stops. Someone had salted to sidewalk and it was completely dry. When I had stopped I was looking at my feet at the brake peddle wondering what happened and just then when I looked up a massive SEMI TRUCK passed by... WOW right?

So when I think about this question I have to think there is a devine reason I am still here. For what you might ask? I am not sure... To be a mother? To be a wife? I don't know but I will do my best at whatever it is that I am supposed to be doing!!

Day Twenty Six Have I ever thought about giving up on life? If so, why?

Umm this is a super personal question and I don't want to go into too much detail, but yes I have. I was about 14 and that was the first time I had realized how much I needed Faith in something bigger then me. When I didn't succeed I realized that the answer to my problems wasn't death but life...

Day Twenty Seven What is the best thing going for me right now?

MY KIDS!!!! I will always say my kids to this question! They are my everything and I am so glad that I get the honor of being their mom... :) :)